Fridat night after a very loud debate between myself and a friend,over a misunderstanding of words. I thought about a comment she made.

" you are lookin for everyone to meet,to high of expectations.You will never be happy".

I will tell you after she said that i cried. I didn't cry because she hurt me,or even if there was some truth to her statement. I CRIED that she viewed me in such a shallow way. And why am I not worth asking or looking for better.

Sould a person just settle,not strive to have a better way of life?
I try to be fair,as non-judgemental as i can be, honest,loving.
I try to treat others with respect.So shouldn't i be entitled to the same?

Because,i would like to meet a man that feels like i do about,honesty,commitment. She said i was " not easy to please,and should be easier on people ". I SHOULD LOOK THE OTHER WAY MORE!! and keep my mouth shut and i would be happy.

I HELPED push my husband out the door, he would get tired of the other woman and the porn.That i made it to hard for him to be himself! . Maybe i need to find a new friend.

Junebug

Was thinking about these,they were my fav. candy.
WHAT WAS OR IS YOUR FAVORITE CANDY ??

JUNEBUG

Saturday nite i went out with a group of friends.This is the third time now in the last five weeks.I'm really starting to enjoy this new routine. We chose midnight bowling. OK, Now normally this would not be an issue ,but i cannot see well at night and i had two beers.I don't drink.I used to,but around 2000 i had stopped almost all drinking and would only have had a glass of wine once in a while.

I had not eaten hardly anything on saturday,so the beer was buzzing and the lights go out,everything is glowing and we start to bowl.I usually bowl very badly. I could not beleive my night, STRIKE,STRIKE,SPARES. I was kickin bootie. So,i guess for me the key to a good game of bowling is to be slightly drunk and blind .Oh yeah,and i'm on my laptop blogging and searching the net for a friend. Then Pretty and I get into Randy's blog and she is kickin his butt over a Leo Sayer comment.

I try to explain the "stream" to my group and they are sitting there reading about beaver speedos,dancing chickens and Pretty Rubble and I debating the best muppet characters. I wander if i will get re-invited out next weekend .WHOOT WHOOT

I had a great time,even played air guitar with a guy in my group.He is a big guitar player and all his kids play instruments ,so do my kiddos so it was fun for everyone.

But of course there is always a kink in a string of good days,yesterday the dogs got into the trash!! So, you can imagine alot of Mr.Clean and Frebreeze.

I started working on the menu for the catering job,i submit it friday for approval.It is freezing and they are calling for more snow. I want to thank everyone for the warm welcome back,and advice.

Junebug

my saturday night party song

Junebug

I don't know that i ever mentioned i went to four years at a very good culinary school. After years of everyone telling me to use my talents. I took on a job catering an important event for our local NAVAL AIR BASE. 150 people. Please i need prayers and i'm a nervous wreck. But if this goes well,who knows? Also what do you think my chances are of publishing a cookbook ?, I know there are tons out there. Hey gang,,,,,IT FEELS GOOD TO BE ALIVE. And what are your opinions on how long before dating. Iam now legally seperated. And we have been apart almost a year?

Mwah....Junebug